Review – “Demons in My Mind” by Aashish Gupta

Demons in My Mind, a psychological thriller by first-time author Aashish Gupta is one of the very few in Indian writing scenarios to deal with such a topic. Inspired by the personal experiences of the author and his self-proclaimed anxiety disorder, this novel tries to foray into the most versatile yet dangerous part of the human body, The Mind and I must say he does it beautifully.
Frankly, when I first started reading this novel, I didn’t find it intriguing. By the time I was halfway, I realized this novel is not what it seems, but something much deeper and darker. Unlike the throngs of cliché romantic novellas hitting the market, this one is different. Touching upon the sensitive subjects of anxiety and depression, a result of the sufferings of the mind, which most of us don’t seem to understand, Demons in My Mind enables us to at-least acknowledge these if not creating awareness completely.
The Mind is a complex entity, especially the Human Mind. It is, in itself, self-sufficient and able to make one do as it wants. Its structure is unmapped, the way it functions cannot be recorded, and its plethora of emotions leading to our varied actions is unaccountable. One such story of this unaccountability is Demons in My Mind. A story of three monks, of a good son and a murderer, of an artist and a rapist, of a lover and a sadist, and how their emotions landed them far away from where they started.

Dakshesh is suffering from an incurable disease, and the only thing he wants is to be relieved of it, for-ever and for-good. His belief that the three mystical monks are the only ones who can help him brings him to the foot of the Himalayas from where he hopes that they will take him under their wings. Miraculously to Dakshesh’s belief, he indeed is taken up by the monks unaware of their reality. Once in the safe-house of the monks, he dares to hear the story of their journey, from simple men to the enlightened ones. What he hears next is unbelievable to his ears and his mind is unable to fathom its authenticity, he knows that the enlightened ones would never lie yet such atrocious stories they told, his feeble mind has difficulties accepting it. Once he becomes sure of them speaking the truth, he realizes that his physical pain is nothing compared to the mental agony the monks had suffered in their lives. As his mind relaxes, his pain subsides and he becomes more peaceful with the knowledge of the fact that the monks had shared their lives with him, giving him an insight into their darkest phases and making him understand that IT’S ALL IN THE MIND.

A mind is a volatile place, igniting at the slightest of sparks, taking it into the darkest of hells know to humankind. Hypnosis and hallucinations often accompany such minds and make the owner vulnerable to diseases – yes, diseases of the mind, unknown to the ones not suffering from it. These diseases force the owner to lose his/her mental balance and at times do such horrendous crimes that you and I will despise upon. But is it really their mistake that they are diseased and suffering, unable to control what they are doing to others and in turn to themselves? Will we as mere spectators be able to forgive them for their doings however dark their deed is? Can these minds be cured and brought back to life once again? If cured, can these become the minds that have the power to guide generations? Can they give enlightenment to others after having been into darkness themselves?
Demons in My Mind is a roller coaster of human emotions – struggling to keep up with the pace of its creator, The Mind, and if remains untamed, having disastrous consequences on the lives of the owner and if you are lucky enough, completing the ride satisfactorily. It compels you to question the foundation of humanity, are people really what they seem or is there a past no one knows about? Are the monks/saints really Godly or are they humans who have just learned to accept and forgive? This novel does not answer any questions instead opens up a whole lot of them, giving it’s readers a chance to figure out themselves and their own reliability – on themselves and for others.


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